Move on

“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ’I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”

– Joel Osteen

Day 22/30

I woke up today feeling irritated and frustrated. In the past couple of months, I have gone through 2 specific incidents with regards to my career and personal life that haven’t panned out in the way I want. You wait for a long time for things to work out your way, to encounter something that lights your soul, to experience something that sparks joy. After an excruciatingly long wait, the Universe decided to give me a glimpse of those things. Everything looked perfect on the face of it, it looked like my wishes have been answered, finally! But, turns out it was just a sample or in technical terms, a trial version. The outcome of these experiences are inconclusive. While I’m waiting for the end to be positive, somehow my mind keeps saying that it might not be so.

I’m frustrated but I’m done being frustrated. I’m done feeling like this. I’m done allowing rejections of any kind, to get the best of me. I don’t want to get into that phase of life where nothing and no one make sense anymore. Where I keep blaming my stars for everything wrong that’s happened in my life. Where I stop being grateful about the good things in my life and only concentrate on the ones that didn’t turn out as per my wish. I’m done.

While I’m horrible at the art of moving on, I want to fight back these negative feelings till the last ounce of mental strength and energy. How am I planning to do it? By taking care of myself and showing up for myself, each day, every day.

“With every act of self-care your authentic self gets stronger, and the critical, fearful mind gets weaker. Every act of self-care is a powerful declaration: I am on my side, I am on my side, each day I am more and more on my own side.”

– Susan Weiss Berry

There are many different ways in which one can indulge in self care activities throughout the day. Don’t be fooled by the name “self care”. Though these activities are meant to make you feel better, most of us will easily trade it with lying around and doing nothing. These activities require you to “take action” which is easily one of the most difficult tasks to do when we feel under the weather.

Here’s a list of random self care activities that one can choose from. I won’t make big promises and write down huge self care goals. I’d rather follow them for sometime and share my experience after a month or so. I wish you a happy and healthy state of mind. You deserve the best, you deserve to be happy!

A second chance

#94/100

“Sometimes in life, you’re not always given a second chance, but if you do, take advantage of it, and go out with a bang!”

-AQUARIA

I was dreading an event that was supposed to take place today. I was unprepared even after having sufficient time to prepare for it. I let my anxiety get the better of me, yet again. Or was I too comfortable being anxious and not having to put in the required efforts to fight back? I don’t really know. As the clock kept ticking to the time of the event, I started losing hope to get a positive outcome out of it. After all we can’t leave everything for our fate to decide.

Something magical happened an hour before the scheduled event. IT GOT POSTPONED! I didn’t know how to react. I literally got the gift of time from the Universe itself. This is how “second chances” must feel like. I was relieved and happy at the same time.

I woke up in the morning today promising myself that I would try my level best to be prepared for everything in life, as much as I can and not leave my life to unexpected chances. I will work hard to live up to to this new version of me. I hate last minute jitters yet I procrastinate till the end, every single time. Things can’t work like this no more. It’s time to change and put an end to this habit, one little step at a time. Let’s do this!