Take a chill pill

#18/100

Change your thoughts and you change your world

Norman Vincent Peale

It’s been a while since I started having second thoughts and a feeling of extreme dissatisfaction with my career choice. As a kid, my only goal in life was to become a doctor. I really didn’t have an introspective, deep reason behind it. During my childhood, becoming a doctor was held in high regards by the society, the child was presumed to be intelligent and on the right path. The society’s thoughts completely influenced my decision. No matter who asked a question about my future career choice, my answer always remained consistent, “doctor”.

When it was time to select the stream for my further education, my marks fell short for “Science” stream in the college of my choice. I ended up selecting “Commerce” in the same college without being forced or guided by anyone. My mother would have wholeheartedly supported my decision no matter my choice. I feel like “Commerce” chose me instead of it being the other way around. My life started becoming simpler once I went with this choice.

Now 8 years later, my brain somehow keeps telling me that I hate this field, my profession, my career and life. No one forced me to do this yet I act like a victim in the clutches of my life’s situations. I have always kept a firm belief that life keeps ‘happening’ to me rather than being in control of it. That’s an easy way to escape from the reality than owning up to it and taking responsibility for each of our life’s choices.

I had an aha moment today. I always felt that my life would run it’s course in my 9 to 5 corporate job and I’ll end up being the person who only has regrets in their old age. But I don’t have to do this all my life, I don’t “have” to do anything in life forcefully. I can work for few years and figure out what I really want to do next. I can save up enough for an early retirement and just travel the world. I can work on creating an alternative source of income and quit my job. I can do anything, I can be anything in life. The only constant in our life is “change“, everything else is temporary. Why on earth am I suffering today, struggling to be happy today, stressing about my future that has’t panned out or won’t necessarily pan out according to my imagination?

I have stressed about this way too much and couldn’t help but smile after having my aha moment today. It was this simple. Time to take a chill pill and enjoy my life.

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